I Didn't Ask for ThisShit

I never asked to be

shut down

ripped up

devoured

tortured



my heart never asked to be

locked up

blocked up



I’m just trying get free

Trying to be me

The me, I was before you

The me, I never knew



The “love” I had for you

Has BEEN gone

shut down

ripped up

devoured

tortured



You won’t see

Or even believe

That you did this



I didn’t ask for this shit

But it’s what you gave me





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Not everything written needs to be read/sometimes it's needed to get the sh!* out your head/a therapeutic process/don't even try and stop it/your thoughts are on overload/not knowing what the future holds/the silence is loud/what to do now?/ write it down/get it out/ for you to know/ no one needs to find out/ not everything written needs to be read ©MVP2011

Sway

Sway your hips, girl

Feel that rhythm

Flowing from the soles of your feet

Dance to the beat

Electrifying vibes

Move … lick those lips

Sway your hips, girl

*Inspired at Skyline Music*

Juicy

This poem was written  for my new 'Friend' Mr. Edwin Edward Cayce Ihlenfeld



Just about to take a break

been working real hard,

In the mood for a juicy steak


Juicy, juicy, juicy, and tenderized

(Kind of got me thinking about

ol' girls booty and nice, thick thighs)


Ok, wait back to my steak

Rub it down with some olive oil

season it up good, let it marinate


Cooked over an open flame

My taste buds will never be the same


I’m licking my lips

I just can’t wait

To get a taste

Of...

my big juicy steak


When I hear the sizzle

And searing begin

I know soon, my waiting will end


AND that it did,

That rib eye got maxed

Now imma take a nap!


*disclaimer*
This poem was written from a male perspective. I do not often think about big booty thick girls* I also can turn most anything sexual or erotic. I guess that is a "gift"? Lol I don't know. but its fun.



Mr. Edwin Edward Cayce Ihlenfeld I hope you get a nice juicy steak. :)

Perfect Passion

Lips connect


Perfect fit

Passion arises

From this perfect kiss



Words unspoken

Lips meant to be,

Joined eternally?

Can't be



Always on time

Inline,

With Heart beats



Passion a blaze deep inside

Passion for what I write

Explodes...

Into this perfect kiss

thoughts

Today, I am feeling a little down. I guess there are a few different reasons. noe i really car to share, but non the less I'm still down. I cant even say that TODAY I feel down. more like at this moment. Sitting in this heat. thinkinig about whatever it is I find myself thinking. trying not to get to deep because i have to go back to work no sad faces. the choices I make are mine.  that is all I have for now.  MVP

Forbidden

Anticipation builds



pulse rates soar



minds sway



sweat beads upon nervous skin



excitement builds



just a kiss



just a taste



of the



forbidden

You Thought?

You thought it was sweet


talking all that shit to me

whispering deep inside my ear

I ate it, like my last meal

you believed I was buying what you sold

Baby please, don’t be fooled

I know your game; I know how you play,

plot and plan your way

to a woman’s heart

but you didn't plan on this;

I made you come to me

just so I could see what you had

Oh, my bad

you thought you were winning

spitting those lies

you thought, wrong.

All those lies

that you poured into my soul,

you believe.

Now, baby you really do

love me

Baby, love me and

watch me leave.

Support, Encourage, Motivate~ We ALL need it from one another

Support, Encourage, Motivate~ We ALL need it from one another




As I was going for my morning walk/run, a thought came to me about support, encouragement and motivation. Usually every day I see someone as I am out. Typically it’s other people doing the same thing, trying to get or remain healthy we smile at each other, offering support with our tired eyes. I often see co-workers of mine,(seeing as I walk across the street from where I work) they wave at me smile big and I have even gotten encouraging text messages from them. They have me feeling like forest Gump. “Run Forest run!” LOL I have Face book friends supporting me as well, it is a great feeling. I think about how much more energy I feel when I see my support system actually supporting me.

Then I had a thought, what about people out here who “don’t need” anyone and they “got this”. Maybe so, maybe those are independent people working hard for theirs. Supporting themselves, encouraging and still doing the damn thing! I commend that. However, I imagine that is must be a lot of pressure on a person to not have or count on anyone else. I am sure they have their reasons maybe been let down one too many times, someone told them they couldn’t do it so they are ripping and running to prove them wrong. I understand and see nothing wrong with that.

Imagine however, if a person would have that outside support. It would alleviate some pressure from them; still allowing success, still reaching goals. Only, not alone and it would be more enjoyable. It is great to “Do you” but even greater if you can enjoy “Doing you” with the support of others. Find a good support system.

Let me be your motivation ~NOT in my Kelly Rowland voice~ LOL

MVP

Woman

Woman…




Powerful

Emotional

Loving

Angry

Passionate

Dedicated

Selfless



Woman

You are strong when you feel weak
You are whole when you feel incomplete
Strength flows from your tears
Don’t be afraid to cry
Behind the eyes your soul shines



Woman

Mother

Sister

Lover



Survivor



Astounding like the ocean
Gentle like a stream
Women..
Do your thing



For my HIPPY chicks

MVP 2011

Really?

wow! it has really been a long time since I have posted anything. I suck! (ummm well) nevermind. ;) but any hoo. I need to turn my game back on, stepping it up won't do because I have done nada. I have lots of things floating in my head, and I have posted a few on my FB page, Mid-west poest 2. ( by the way there is some talent in that group) I gave up FB 14days ago as a part of a fast so to speak. Just trying to spend less time on things that are a waste of time, more time in prayer. I guess thats not going how I expected it either, but It's a start. at first It wasnt as hard as I thought going without FB. and only yesterday or so I began to feel a missing part of myself, my technonogical internet side. I have been "updating" my stat in my mind...Lolso  much to say! GO PACK GO!! and that Rookie Sam Shields ohhh weeee his fine self!! (that is why we watch football right? EYE CANDY!) he caught my eye right quick. Yummy! and lets see I don't know what else. You all know I had been struggling with some depression (well ya know now if you didn't) I failed my 2nd semester at UWM...Sad. and was really just getting by in this life. I had it bad. BUT you know the devil is a lie and he aint about to steal MY joy! SO now what? Get my ass back up and MAKE A MOVE! I'm not one hunnid percent...but I'm getting there slowly. I'm not where I was and I am not where I will end up...but I am on my way. So Holla at cha girl...give me a boost and some support. You pray for me I'll pray for you. We need eachother. Be blessed and when I get to where I'm going I hope to see you there.
MVP
Ik I spelled somethings wrong...lol spell check not working on this here blog. but its okay knowing is half the battle! *MUAH*

Slain

My mind hurts from the pain and strain of thinking bout you. I imagine us( as we) together forever and it hurts. I'm not talking about a good love pain. But a heart slain. I can no longer embrace this place "we" have come to. It is you I will no longer run to. But through it all I have grown stronger and wiser. I will see if you haven't destroyed the better half of me. I will search for my destiny and proceed with excellence; so step away save face, you are no longer welcome in this place. My head hurts from the pain,the strain of my heart which you have slain.

Survivor

I can accept it mentally, that the two of us will never be

But my emotions drive and simulate, for a split second I contemplate

How it would be inside your world; stand by you and be your girl.

I would dive  the depths of the sea

If it would mean you, being with me

no oxygen tank to help me breathe

Surviving on just a dream

I Need You

I need to see you everyday
I need you to smile, when I look your way
I need to get close to you on the sly
I need to look into your eyes

Your gentle touch I need it so much

I need you to be you, so I can be me
I need you just so I can breathe
I need to hear your comforting voice
I need you, I have no choice

The minute you start to fade away
My chest gets tight, I can't breathe
Can't you see what you do to me?
I get dizzy..and need to run
Can't you see what you have done?

I need you so bad it hurts
Real true pain
I want it to go away
But I need you to stay.

Husband

Can't wait to see my husband

He's been hard on my mind
Can't wait to taste his sweet lips

After he's tasted mine

There's gonna be some grinding
I’m a do it nice and slow
Take my baby places
He'd never thought I'd go

I’ll wear Victoria’s secret, and nothing more
Won't be long till the bra and panties hit the floor
or
He may want me to put on a show
Giving him a private dance
Turns him on.... I know


Lay him on his back, and go for a ride
can’t wait for him to come inside
..................................
Deep inside my mind

This attraction is incredible
My husband is so edible
Nibble nibble lick
All over his


My libido Is blazing hot
Can't wait to show him what I've got.
He’ll say my name, I'm a say his too
I'm not doing it all, he'll work me till I'm through

Can’t wait to see my husband
He’s been hard on my mind
Can’t wait for my husband
To hit it from behind

Never Be Me

I see the way he looks at her
She looks back just the same
The joy between the two of them
Brings me a lot of pain
I want so bad to be that girl
To make him laugh and smile
I long to hold him so tight if even for awhile
I want him to look at me the way he looks at her
I desire true reciprocated love
That will never cause me harm

I will never be that girl
Never in his world
Wish never felt like this
Waiting for the day
When this love pain goes away.

Free write Unplugged

Trying to free my mind yet still wishing it would collide with my body and soul
I'm standing up on top this world looking out
Wondering what's it all about
I'm trying to get away from it all,
Yet I struggle with the desire to be a part of it all
Wanting to climb higher as high as I can go
To a place where no one knows
But why?
Why is my desire to go higher
And farther away
Yet I want to stay?
My mind is a twister
Spinning out of control
Trying to hold on
But I am blowing away in this storm
Being torn down at every turn
No place to run
Where is my knight
To bring me to the light?
I don't need a hero
But it would be nice
Right?
Take me away to place I long to be
The place that will set me free
Before we go
Help me love this pace I know
When I return don't want to get burned by what was left behind
Help me dry my eyes
Help me succeed
Be who God needs me to be
I can only imagine that person is free
Free to walk the earth in her bare feet
Free to speak when her mind at any time
Free to climb
High

Run

A long stretch of road
Never ending pavement
Deserted, no one in site
I want to run
Don't look back
I want to run
I have no place to go
I'm stuck

My Heart

I see the sadness in your eyes
Although no tears you cry
At least not for me to see
Come, go away with me
Even if just for a while
Do what I can to help you smile
We can take a walk or just talk
No need to pour out your soul
If it helps I can just hold you
Not talking about a physical affair
Just a friend who's always there
To laugh, to hold and talk a while
Chances are I have walked that mile
I have put you in a special place
A place where I hope you stay
You been there from the start
I give you a piece of my heart.

Skyline

On top of the grassy hill
Where neighborhoods combine
We look out across the sky
City buildings so high
Milwaukee river near by
Thick heat and cool breeze surround us
Friends from all around
Live reggae sounds
Fill our ears
We dance away our fears
No worries here
For now
All is well
We chill...
Looking out
At the skyline
Children run and play
Rolling down hills
Parents smile
And reminisce
On times when they were kids
Good times
At Skyline