Thoughts

I wonder if I put all my thoughts out on this here blog, and told some shit like it was, what would happen/ would i feel release? would it make me feel ant better to have pt my business in the streets? I don't know. sometimes I feel like I don't have anyone to really talk to. I do have a support system but I really sometimes need to express things that I can't express. I don't even know why I am writing this wack vague post right now, just something to do I guess before I go home. something is physically and maybe mentally wrong with me. Now I'm not crazy or nothing and I am not going to go postal, so don't worry! but I know myself, I know when something is not quite right. I know I have people here to support me and most of all God, all that is not helping right now, this minute. It will pass it always does, the sadness. I justt wonder when it will pass and not return, (I mean besides when I am in heaven with my Father) or at least have a some time in between visits. I am not expecting sympathy or anything, I guess I just need to vent. about nothing and everything, I have said all this, but what have I really said. I'm sad and something is not right with me.