"I have neither the time, energy, or mental capacity to deal with all of the emotion you come with."
A friend sent me this. I guess everyone has their limits. It is so sad. I know i Make mistakes, i never knew it would be like this. If i did i would have kept the masks on. It's hard to open up i guess i did that too much. Lesson learned. Not everyone can accept everything. Shit if this person couldn't, no one can. Reading that broke my heart and spirit.
I really am that bad.
Sad.
I'm so angry right now. At myself and friends, so called friends. I am angry because i am to emotional. I am angry became this has pushed away someone very close to me. I don't know what to do with these emotions. I don't know who to talk to. I want to post everything on Facebook but i guess that's what go me in this situation. I just need some support. I guess people have limits to how much they can support you. I can't be mad. But i am . I mean i guess i don't blame someone who wants to stop fucking with me. I'm a mess. I don't let people close cause now look..one of the few person i trust the really most, to love me and not judge me is gone...that energy i needed...i pushed away being me...a me that i despise. And don't know what to do with. I am so sorry. I can't stop crying...
I wish i didn't care.
I wish i could not give a fuck.
I want to punch something
I almost said i wanted this person to feel my pain
But i don't.
I love them
No one should feel like this
No one
But me
A blog is for thoughts right? Well i thought some shit... I miss someone right now. It hurts. But such is life i guess. I gave up Facebook for a month. I might not go back. Idk. I wrote a letter today to the person i miss. I didn't send it because i doubt they care, that in itself hurts. I feel empty, not completely. Just a small part is empty. I tell this person a lot and now i don't know Who to talk to. Guess i messed this up really good. Smh
